I dreamed about him again last night. In my dream I’d been looking for his new house and found it. It was across the street from his mother’s. She had 3 cars under the carport in addition to his van. Somehow, as in dreams, we were in a different place, shopping I think, and hanging out with friends. And then she called him. He said he had to leave to get her a cheeseburger. I scoffed, asked him why didn’t she get her own cheeseburger. That’s when he killed me all over again. He said, “that’s not the nature of our marriage.” And I screamed. I railed at him; I cried. I threw things, and I left.
Then I was shopping again, buying things that smelled like him.
Wednesday night I dreamed he and were in a parade. Then all of a sudden she was there with him. She even ruins my dreams of him…
It sounds like you’re going through some minor PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder). Perhaps not, though. Nightmares of the traumatic situation is common and perhaps should be followed up with someone you can talk to.
I was with a girl for four years, and have recently found out that I was suffering from PTSD due to the relationship her and I shared. It’s not a fun thing to try and live and can really stutter someone’s life. I’d run from love or anything that reminded me of it, I’d have nightmares every night about specific scenarios, anxiety, depression. Now that I’ve suffered it and know what it can do, I’d rather not see others go through it, or at least see if I can help them.